Will this ever end

i have had depression for over 20 years, I also have anxiety and an eating disorder , ocd and I get scared to leave the house. I have tried many different medications over the years but nothing seems to work for me. I am extremely lonely at the moment and I am going through a very bad time right now. I would just like to find something that will get me out of this way of life that I have had enough of. I seemed to have lost the want to get better .  meet up sound like a very good idea to get to know people who are going through a similar situation.